I'm spending my Friday night swatting up. I have the terrifying experience of transition day on Monday and do not feel slightly prepared. I have policies to memorise (or at least get to grips with the gist) when I still can't remember the names of the staff. It worries me. So my weekend will be exclusively devoted to revision, which quite frankly I thought I'd put behind me in May. Unfortunately I get the feeling that much of the year will follow a similar pattern.
I have to tell parents about routines, curriculum, uniform and behaviour management when I still get lost trying to find the staff room! I am very concerned that they are likely to ask questions, which is perfectly reasonable behaviour for a parent. I hope my nursery nurse is as good as she seems and supports me when I'm cowering in the corner crying. What if they don't take me seriously? What if they think I'm too young, or not smart enough, or too inexperienced? I suppose these are perfectly normal issues for an NQT but it doesn't stop me feeling very isolated and scared. In reality it will probably be fine as long as I've done my homework and prepared myself. I've picked out an outfit and started composing a crib sheet to ease my stage fright.
But I am also coming to the scary and quite sad realisation that as of Thursday I will no longer work as a nursery nurse. I'm finding the fact that I won't be involved in special needs anymore hard to swallow and am probably never again going to work with any of the children I have got to know over the last four years. Happily the school in which I have spent a majority of time as a supply nursery nurse have said I will be welcome to visit for observations and career development.
On the other hand I will be in charge. For the fast time I am responsible for the children and the environment and the decisions are mine to make. I am the teacher.
Friday 6 July 2007
Fear and panic
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3 comments:
Be not afraid, small Weblet: you have been waiting for this since you were a child, you have be preparing since you were an adult, and you are more ready for it than you think. Good luck. I'm proud of you xxx
All quite understandable! It's an exciting adventure you've got ahead of you = enjoy every moment! Oh, and don't take any nonsense from the mouthy parent types either!!
Good luck! If it helps at all, I am a hard @ss parent of four with a raft of academic qualifications of my own but I can still feel intimidated by the youngest and most inexperienced of teachers!
I'm sure that with a sis like Webbo you'll make it through just fine ;)
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